She had almost forgotten about the stranger by then. She was sure that he was not to return. She was just enjoying her favorite season. Winters. She always associated herself with winters. And it was her time of the year. So she was calm ad thoughtless.
This was a very cold night. She was not waiting for anyone and was quite relaxed. She was thinking about what ever events have happened in her life in the past few days. It was late night already and when she was least expecting it. He called.
She could not react. Neither was she happy. Nor was she sad. She thought for a second and then took his call.
"Its been quite some time."
He said.
"Yes. How are you?"
She was very cold and indifferent now.
"I am good."
"You never called after that so i thought you are gone now."
"I have the tendency to go. But i come back. At times i need to be on my own. But that does not mean that i am gone."
"OK."
"I know any normal human being would expect to keep in touch. But i am a bit abnormal."
He smiled. Though she smiled but she was still indifferent.
"So how have you been."
"Its strange but i missed you for the first few days."
"Are you falling in love with me?"
He asked.
"Not at all. I missed the conversation we used to have. I somehow always relish the things you used to talk to me. Its a relation free of expectations and demands. And that had bought a lot of comfort to me."
He went silent.
"I just like COMMUNICATING. I can't love again either."
For the first time he realized that she has emotions too. He had almost forgotten that she has a long lost love too. He was embarrassed at his own question.
"Yes. I like communicating with you too. Its like I can be as honest as i want to. But I dont want you to expect from me. You felt bad when I didnt call you. But did you call me either?"
This time she went silent.
"Why do u want me to pursue you. Whats wrong if you call me and tell me that you want to talk to me."
"I just wanted to know if you are talking to me because we actually are as connected as you said we are or we are talking only because you felt heavy and you wanted someone or may be anyone to talk to."
"Why you want me to categorize our relation. You know most people believe that there are two types of relations in this world. One is the natural ones like family and the other ones are those you make. Like falling in love, Like making friends. But you know there can be other types of relations too. You can be in attached to a human being, an individual, an idea, a place. And once you are attached it does not need to be visited again and again. It does not require you to pay homage everyday. You can visit them anytime you feel and then be as happy as you were to see them or be associated to them for the first time.
Same is you for me. I might not talk to you everyday. But that does not mean that I am not attached to you. You and I can communicate and that is all i expect from you."
She was listening to all he said very quietly.
"You want to ask something else from me ?"
He asked.
"I got my reply already."
She smiled. He smiled too. Once again they both could cope up with the indifference.
"So it stopped raining?"
"Yes ever since you stopped calling. It stopped raining."
"You associate me with rains?"
"Do you have any doubts."
"But its cold here."
"Yes because now its my time."
They both smiled.
ohk.. now u have here relieved my fears of it gng in conventional direction!!!
ReplyDeleteCool.... Waiting for next without expectations! ;)